so long nv update le. hmm..
recently very busy and tired... tell me how?
sometimes, i hope that i'm living in my own's world.
nobody cares, nothing to do, and no one can interfere.

i'm still waiting to graduate from school. it like i dun like certain modules i'm taking.
and sometimes, it is really forcing myself to wake up for sch. i hate presentations, i hate tutorial, i hate research... super duper freaking bored.rushing those projects like crazy and time is not enough to use.. want to do something that i like and without any objections, really.

i did notice, i also dun understand wht some modules is talking about. i feel like i'm jus a free rider in the group. my contributions also not much, which i realise when we are doing projects. maybe i'm jus born not be a studious person.

i just dunno y i care so much on how people looks at me.. be it by looks or heart. i wanna kick out of this habit and live freely. but i can't. i know it is my own perception. but........ haix.

work is still alright for me, is jus that i'm not as interested as the 1st time working in minitoons alr. now working is jus passing time for me, and earn. too much stress accumulated. and maybe is the incharge i'm with. i feel like i'm jus like a person who ppl use me. 利用, because when anyone is in trouble, i will definitely help.. but after that, will u appreciate my help?? i know some ppl will. but not many.

我真的有利用价值吗? 还是看我好欺负, 心肠好?